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Post by astralguardian on Oct 7, 2005 12:38:32 GMT -5
Thoughts?
I have mine.... I have my personal account. What it feels like, what you see, hear.... how you fight it.
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Post by astralguardian on Oct 7, 2005 13:05:56 GMT -5
It’s pressure. It’s an undeniable pressure that almost feels to come from within. Once pin pointed, it’s feeling to come from behind the head, just above, and trunk down to the neck. From there, it grabs and envelopes around the shoulder, chest and stomach. It’s a conduit with a pump on the other side. Through it, the engorged conduit dumps sludge. Bitter, hatred and anger-driven will of hurt. The people at that pump are plain as day. They don’t hide themselves well, but there is nothing to be done. You’re only response is to lay down and take it for several long minutes. It’s not even like a cold….. or a flu. It’s far more vicious. And as you take it, your low self screams at you in agony, awaiting for your to ground yourself and provide a shield. It never comes, you don’t have the will to provide the focus for such a task. It’s forcing, it bends you to it’s own will… it’s dark dank will. You might as well have a gun to your head. It drives you away from things. Things you enjoy. People you know.
I didn’t take to kindly to it.
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Post by seleena on Oct 11, 2005 10:59:32 GMT -5
I am so sorry something like this has happened to you. You don't deserve it. A bunch of us had this type of thing happen to us. For me, it was being caught in a huge dark thunderstorm, the power went out and everything - except for one thing - there was no thunder storm. It was awful. Really scary. The wind was howling, the lightning, I thought was going to burn down the house, the power went out and I had a horrible headache. It wasn't much fun. A friend told me that if we don't ground ourselves properly that can happen. I have had it happen a couple more times. It isn't much fun. It does drive you away from things.
You are right. It makes you want to protect yourself so much that you close yourself off to others. I find it hard to open up as much as I use to since it happened. I don't connect as well. I am an empath and use to feel much more. Now I have a barrier up at all times. It's not as good, but I have to protect myself.
Love and light, my dear dragon.
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Post by vermindaspirit on Oct 11, 2005 12:28:22 GMT -5
I also viewed it as a 'storm'.....It came from nowhere, one minute I'm in my sons bedroom getting him settled the next, something dark has a hold of my mind, probing and pulling....My instinct was to get outside, to be next to my willow and to try and fight the darkness, i thought i was going to be sick and faint all at the same time.....Once i was clinging to the willow, a instinct came over me and i knew what to do, i also knew that i was not the only one being attacked at that time, it was happening to one of my sisters and my reaction was to try and protect her as well......
It was the first time anything like this had happened to me but the minute it began i knew what was going on, it happened a few times after but then stopped and so far apart from the odd sensation, i have been left alone, mind you i did send it back to them and you know what they say about three fold...
AG, be strong and ground yourself often, find that shield and enforce it the minute you feel it probing, and know that they who do this are lower than you for it is your power that they try to yield, for they know that you are strong and good and here for a reason and for that they will try to stop you.....Call upon your dragon and your divine ones and there will be no stopping you...Take care my friend....Verminda...xx..
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Post by astralguardian on Oct 11, 2005 13:36:47 GMT -5
it is like a storm isn't it? OH and when I come to, it gets my leathery wings in a bundle.
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Post by seleena on Oct 11, 2005 14:01:45 GMT -5
I agree with Verminda, AG. She experienced what I did very similar. Call on your protectors and they will strengthen you. As I was taught, as soon as you feel something, call on your guardians, totem, dragon, etc and with everything in you shout at them to exit this plane and they will. It takes energy and you will be tired after, but it works. Hurl a huge burst of light against thier black light and it will drive it out of your head and out of your plane of being. It sends them back to where they came from and they probably won't feel to good after. It feels mighty good too. Tee hee.
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Post by lilyfae on Oct 11, 2005 15:26:37 GMT -5
I am so so sorry to hear that AG, it is not something one would wish upon anyone and I'm so glad that you are ok now.
unleashing a troupe of faeries does wonders...(seleena I know you remember that moment!) the group attack that happened to a few of us at the same time online was scary, it was like intense pressure around me like an animal must feel before a storm (like I do sometimes to be honest) and a feeling of dark...
However I do have some kind of sight because I could see a figure that was not of this plane at my conservatory doors and I nearly cacked it.
But to be honest, being faced with that kind of darkness and in real time seeing my friends online being picked off one by one (power failures, hazing out) I think I channelled the most power I have ever done in my entire life... I suddenly found myself chanting words I'd never heard before and I literally saw gold light manifesting in my hands which I then sent with a bunch of faeries to the source of the attack wherever it was.
I think that was because I had incredible protection around me at the time, and I thank the god and goddess that I was able to protect myself and fight at that time.
However the last time I was seriously attacked was so so scary because whatever I did nothing would fight it off, and I saw things that i never wish to see again because they frightened me and it was only with help from my dearest sisters that i was able to get away from it.
This thing was literally a soul sucker because it preyed on my fears and my self esteem and the fears that every woman has if you get what I'm hinting at.
Its not nice, but I think that Seleena's advice is best, if you can call on your guardians, and any other spiritual protectors/entourage then do it, if you can send a ball of energy to break it then do it, and if you can only put up shields then get them as strong as you can.
I think the trick with this sort of thing is to remember Peter Pan... think happy thoughts, then you are stronger, as many of these things prey on your weaknesses, fears and sadness.
my blessings to you dearest one
lilyfae xxxx
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Post by brandra on Oct 11, 2005 16:30:37 GMT -5
AG I have PM'd you
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Post by goldmother on Oct 14, 2005 4:11:42 GMT -5
(((hugs))) AG
I have my own experiences of this, far too numerous and unpleasant. I sincerely hope this never happens to you again xx
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Post by celebrin on Oct 14, 2005 7:10:57 GMT -5
It is a horrible thing to happen. When it happened to a group of us I could feel someone standing right behind me, I was so scared I did not dare turn around, I don't know what would have happened if I had looked at it. I now have rings of protection around my home so tight and renew them regularly along with my personal protections. I hope it doesn't happen to ANY of us again!  |
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Post by seleena on Oct 14, 2005 8:01:51 GMT -5
I know without your help, Celebrin, it would have been even more terrifying. You were my saviour that night. (((HUGS)))
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Post by astralguardian on Oct 14, 2005 11:16:52 GMT -5
Celebrin, you just gave me a wonderful idea....... I have a ritual to perform tonight  |
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Post by astralguardian on Oct 14, 2005 14:04:24 GMT -5
Let us... forget this for now though. We can let it pass, I forgive those that had done this, whether it was on a malicious purpose or an accident.
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Post by watershield on Feb 8, 2006 2:12:38 GMT -5
Lilyfae said
I'm glad I found this thread. When I talk about shades, I see some of you have some understanding.
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